Today was one of the roughest moments of my life. I just got home from the hospital now. I worked 4am-12pm and then immediately went over there. At 1am this morning my grandma was rushed to the hospital after she passed out. Before falling to the ground completely she looked my grandfather and uncle in the eyes and told them she quits and she's tired. Once i heard that, I knew it wouldn't be much longer. Her blood pressure was 70/40 and her kidneys were failing. Her lungs were filled with fluid. They put her on a breathing machine and they did a living will. she was unresponsive the whole time, eyes closed, no movement. She was moved to the cardiac floor at lutheran general around 3. We were informed that she was getting worse and that there was nothing they could do, that all options would either temporarily keep her alive or kill her. We opted for no recessitation. My grandfather was crying, everyone was crying. I sat in the room with them holding my father was he cried like ive never seen before. Around 5:30, my whole family, 40+ people were all standing in the ICU room around her, staring at the heart monitor and praying and sharing stories. I stood right next to her bed with my dad. Around 6:15 i watched the heart rate drop to zero and was the first one to see it. I knew this was it. The nurse came in and shut the monitor off and took her breathing mask off. I watched her gasp for air 3 more times and then she stopped. My uncle fell to his knees and started crying. Everyone was crying. Except for me. I just couldn't squeeze any more tears out than I already had today. I put my knee up against my one uncle, an arm around my father, and then my other arm around my other uncle and stared at my deceased grandmother. One by one people said their goodbyes. After my dad said goodbye, he turned and buried his face in my chest and wept. I don't think i've ever hugged my father so hard in all my life. I stood at the foot of my grandma's bed because I couldn't leave her side, I didn't feel right. After everyone said their goodbyes, i finally held my grandma's hand again and kissed her forehead and wished goodbye and told her i loved her. I came back about an hour later while the priest was in there offering more prayers. My grandfather broke down and had to be taken to the emergency room because he almost had a heart attack. They got him to calm down, and he is OK, and he left a few minutes after we did. I wish my grandma the best and I hope she is watching me from heaven. I love you grandma. RIP.

We are not fully sure when the funeral is, but I will be a paul bearer :-/

 

that brought tears to my eyes man. I am soooo sorry for your loss It hurts to let a family member go. I know you cried enough that literally you have no more tears to cry. I wish all of your family the best of luck. Just cherish the great momenst when she walked this earth. She is in a much better place now. She does not have to think about the wars, this econonmy NOTHING.

So do yourslef a favor and be proud of her........

 

thanks man, i'm trying to hold it together...

 

I know it is tough, it seems like your dad and grandfather really need some support too. I know it is tough to muster up some strength. Be strong

 

Dang, She is in a much better place now. Sorry to hear that. Hope the best for your family

 

yea, my dad is the sole reason i'm trying not to cry. His younger bro died when he was 19 (reason for my tatoo). My dad became the baby again at that point, so he was the closest to my grandma

 

Man, at first I thought you sold your car with that title, but its even worse..

My regards to you and your family, and if you need to get away you know where I am at.

Call me if you need ANYTHING!

 

everyone deals with death differently. sounds like you were the crutch that your family needed. remember the good times you had with your g-ma and she will always be there for you. rip gram.

 

sorry for your loss...

 

I know how you feel man, My grandfather past last month right around christmas I saw him a week before and talked to him for the last time about college girls keeping my head in the right direction n stuff, I just didnt expect him to go during the holidays The day he past I was there for about 6 hours by his side with my mom aunt and my grandma , He had cancer since earlier this year and it finally got the best of him, For about an hour I was there with him alone just holding his hand and he kept trying to take his mask off, and opening his eyes looking at me everyonce in awhile, I had them turn the damn heart monitor beeping off cause that was just to hard to listen to it drop then come back up, Then my mom came back and the nurse said that he had till morning so I had been there all day and went home to shower get some clothes and come back, But when my mom was leaving for the night and my grandma came back they talked in the hallway for a few minutes , And with in the 2-3 min no one was in the room is when he left, I just dont know if thats how it happened or if he was waiting so no one would see, My grandpa was chicago police officer and he always told me that he doesnt like people around him when he is sick and doesnt like to be helped so I guess that is why ,

Dont know why I typed all that out but just relating to you, Your going to meet alot of people that knew your grandma and hear alot of good stories from family and friends
Best of luck to you and stay strong

Chris

 

its hard loosing loved ones, be happy you had the opportunity to say goodbye to her. my grandfather was killed by a drunk driver 2 years ago on thanks giving, no warning, no reason, no goodbye. Its a terrible thing to deal with but in the end remember the life they lived and keep doing what your doing. my regards to you and your family.

 

sorry for your loss man.... my grandmother passed 16 years ago and i remember it like it was yesterday and i was only 12. i have had lots of family go throughout the years but my grandma is the one that really sticks with me. i was her baby and she spoiled me rotten. when i got in trouble i would call her and tell on my mom for yelling at me LOL. in her eyes i could do no wrong. hang in there man and just be there for your family. its times like this that you realize that family is the ONLY thing that really matters.

 

Sorry to hear that bro, its tough to loose someone real close to you. My grandma passed away when i was real young and i never really knew her. I wish her the best up there!

 

Man I'm really sorry to hear that as well. This made me cry as well. I'm going through the same thing as we speak. My dad is in the Nursing home and has been back and forth from the hospital to the nursing home for the past 6 months. 2 weeks ago the doctors told my mom that there is nothing that they can do for him anymore. And everyday he is getting that much worse. It's hard to see the people you love suffering and even pass. But I am coming to a realization that it's in the lords hand and that he said he won't put anymore on you than you can bare. Be strong man. It sounds like your family will really need somone to help them through this. And when it all comes down to it, just be glad you were there to say good-bye. I am fortionate that I have said my good-byes to my dad last night! I love him so much. I just wish you and your family the best of wishes and I hope you deal with this positively!

James

 

thanks everyone. i appreciate the kind words

 

Sorry for your loss, be strong man.

 

im real sorry for your loss, and way to stay strong for your family. my grandparents are getting up there now too and i know id lose it if one if them were to pass away...

 

Best wishes for you and your family. Let time work its magic, think of all the good times!

 

sorry for the loss man, brought tears to my eyes while reading alos, hope all goes well...

 

+1 ^ its hurts to lose anyone close. Hold in there man.